Life... Something very simple but complicated at the same time. Why are we here. I have no idea why i'm supposed to be here. Something wants me to be here but i don't know what. Lately, i've felt like i have no reason to even be here. I've felt unloved, unwanted, unspecial. Just overall i feel like i'm taking up space, wasting people's time, and annoying them. I don't think i deserve life..but don't get me wrong here, i'm not trying to complain...i'm just..well thats a good question. I have no fucking idea what i'm trying to say here. It's just that...when one problem finally gets better, an even worse one comes along and sometimes in pairs. Where your juggling all these problems and soon your knees start to buckle and you just can't do it anymore. When you used to stand back to back to someone, holding hands, as the waves of your problems tried to knock you both over and you stood strong...until the one person who kept you on your feet suddenly disappears and doesn't seem to want to help, running away to the shore as you try to fight the waves by yourself and suddenly, they just consume you and you start to drown.. I feel alone to put it bluntly. I just don't know what to do...i want to feel loved and special again. But i don't think thats going to be happening too soon.. | 
